Biggest Problem

The Biggest Problem ever To an Individual

     Every individual faces some or other kind of problematic irritation or resistance to his/her psycho. I completely agree with the uniqueness of their problems. It’s natural for everybody to take their challenges as a whole new ruckus. So am I. But I am so determined to claim it’s newness that you can’t imagine right now.

You, definitely, would have heard the Law of Karma(action) so my pain revolves around it. It’s not that I am going to blame my past karma which is giving me pain as it’s fruit now but it is the matter of present where my role of Karma has become deceptive to me. ‘’Deceptive” not in the sense that it got denatured, but, actually, deceptive as it itself is not letting me to act. Any action which, I know, is going to be fruitful action is denied to me. My hands get frozen and my mind puts too much stressful pressure that it becomes inevitable to quit that very action. And then this karma smiling sarcastically gives me zero result as I did no action. I watch it all stunned.

            Buddhism said the root cause of all the suffering lies in ignorance. The birth as well as karma has it’s source as avidya (ignorance). Let me make myself more clearer to you. When I set my goal ready, draw the best possible path to traverse it and equipped with all mental and physical strength, I set off. Then, just after a while, mind starts crumbling, warfare starts within, psychology disturbs, path seems wrong, strength shakes and all these happen consciously means without anaesthetics. Eventually I quit. After a few days I feel the extreme pain resulting into my breakdown. I just cry then and this state of myself put devastating effects on my cordial relationships as well. Thereon, unknowingly, my dears become cause of more pain to me. Thus, a vicious cycle forms causing me years of breakdown. But Where does this ignorance exist? Let’s find out.

Does ignorance lie behind the reason of all disturbances ? It Means I should ask the question, why things happen unusual when I set off to the goal. Is it the lack of permanent motivation ? or lack of seriousness, bad conduct in life, irregular routine, overconfidence, or am I the wrong person for this goal ???

👐(You can suggest me solution and with your intelligence please answer the last para questions)  I shall post the whole story later.🙏